its officiall im fallinggg . . . x3

so yess its officiall im falling for him .. and for the first time in years i feel happy =]

im not gonna mention names becuase is to early too tell if this is forreal..  to feel 

like for the first time im really going to have my happy ending . after some many times guys 

atempting to use me ii finally can say dis ones forreal. me and this person have so much in common it scares da shiet out of me :/ he makes me feel so special and i like that alot.

i jus wishhh i didnt have to go away to DR next week so i can be with him every chance i have . . 

im probally being too much and it might scare him off . :x butt for now im content with  what i have with him. .  =] 

 omgheee isnt that photo TOO sooo cutee even though in a ironic way its not 0.0 lol

my life in a nuttshell . .

well it isn't really easy living my freaking life.. . these past couple of weeks has been hell on wheels :/ my moms has become a constant pain in the ass man getting on me for no reason, seeking the opportunity to call me the worse duaghter in the whole wide world always comparing me to my toher cousins oh oyu need to be more flirtatiuos you need to be more gurlie you need to be the you need to be that im SICK of it sick of it all.! i triedd to be the best person i can be but is never enough he rather talk to my cousins instead of me she rather nice and loving to my littlee brother then me! there are times where i feel i was born in a different family . theres really noone who understands me only the people who try to understand me. . .

have you ever felt likee your living in a cage where you cnt get out? i havee im living in a cage where i m trapped 24/7 and it sucks most of dee timee.

but eventually god knows it would be for dee best huh?

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.-- Alfred D. Souza" <---- dis kiddo is right obsticles are my life .

8 more days man . . .-_______-

well its little over a week that i am leaving to Dominican Republic and im dreading everyminute of it. . . i mean like everyones telling me oh why dont you wanna GO its DR its better than providenceee . and i say yess its true problem is im sick of it i already went for TWO months last year and let me tell you it sucked ASS not a great way to spend yah summer let me tell yah. its hard becuase i could had had a job a summer romance and prolly the BEST summer EVER! but im not becuase moms obsessed with my dad in the DR and theres' a wedding i need to attend to. ugh its fustrating man becuase it sucks how you finnally meet someone who could of made your summer special . . and you cnt becuase of DR. but so far im talking about the cons lets talki bout the good stuff i could get away from our little old town and enjoy the awsomeness of the tropical islandd of DR. and since i am a maniac forr fooddd i loveeee every food in DR exceptt pigs ears YUCK and live roooseterrrrr X[ but anyways i guess ill have to enjoy it whilee i can and make the best of it like ashelyyy says . .

but dont worry folks ill still writeee from time to time in my dads retarded internet chat store watever you call it dere lol =]

P$- im fallinggg for him ;) byeee.

out of school . . now summer school.? WTF !

well it barely julyy and its SUMMER nooooo SCHOOL no more waking upp early no seeing gay teachers! and jus have fun ; let loose. but den peoplee end up doing summer school? why da hell do you want to have school inn the summer even though its from 8 to 12 and its only 3 weeks but HELLO you could have done something better den being stuck in school doing work buh noooo they always ALWAYS faling dere classes and dey be like fck it ima do summer school and be done witt it. like what da hell ?! is being in summer the new "IN" is it like the hangout spot for summer i mean there are some pluses i mean you get to see some of your friends like you would do in school . and diquee theirs air condition and shiet and the work is EASY. but is worth it looking stupid for the whole year and waste your time doing work in the summer that you should of done during the summer. i mean me personally i NEVER failed a class or been to summer school i wonder how it feels like -_____- not thatt im gonna fail for that reason . i mean seriously now i days people tend to quit easilyyy and it jus anoyys da hell out of me becuase if you really pass da fcking class and dnt have to do it again dnt be the class bimbo ask your teacher ask question after do tootering WATEVER! try b the best you can be cus im trying to someone i dnt noe about you guys. . .

<--- they advertise it like its a GOOD thing O.o smh!

benjamin$$$$$$ =]

this post i s special becuase its about my buddi benjamin ! =] aka 100 dollar bills ;)

he is like the coolest person EVER. hes like the most nicest sweetest person you

could ever meet. we met threw myspace which is wiered becuase i NEVER give

my aim to anyone on myspace . and he was so chilled wen we talked on my space

so i said what the hay! and gave him my aim .

and we been having awsome convos ever since he was my first reader to read my bloggooo an hes encourages me and compliments me which is a pluss =] i barely have begun to meet him but already i know i can talk to him about anything and i know he would understand ! i hope hes in for dee long run becuase so far hes doing good ;)

its official! my love life scks -___-

well i might be 15 3/4 quarters and i definately know i got my whole life ahead of me to find mr. right . but. . . my love life sucks i mean is it so much to ask for a nice cute decent funny guy who can treat a gurl right? like come on now! (im using alot of come on lol ) afterr so many failed attempts at finding mr right now im realzing that providence does not have enough fcking good lookinq guys who are funny smart decent and just know how to treat a girl right you know?

i mean what guys doesnt ask these questions right of the bat

• so are you a virgin?


• so was good?


• when you lettin me hit that?


• so when are you me chillen?

so im not gonna putt the blamee on all guys that all they think of is sex which of course is not all of them dere are some sweet guy that they do anthing for you but. . us gurls are never attracted to them or their the best guy friend nd would NEVER do such a thing.

but as for mee all guys usually want one thing - my body.

i mean im jus pretty normal gurliee. but im not gonna say there were guys where dey wanted me for who i am which i totally want problem is . . once again im not attracted and i end upp getting atracted to the ass hole who only was a hit nd bounce method. "/ butt fck it i do NOT give in becuase jus wen you give in a little dey go in for dee kill!

butt in the mean time im going to lay low for a while nd be single . . . as usual

but if someone thinks the y can change my opnion hitt me up i dnt mind having a debate on this issue ;D

<----so yeah i jus found dis picture on google i mean COME on im not dat desprete but i see this buddy is ;)

$1 dollar rental$$$

soo i jus finished watching these too movies mall cop & american high school.

1. we got them at these rent a box shiet where you get the movies rented for a dollar a day which is ok.
2. the movies selections SUCK and might i add that wtf is aubrey from danity kane doing stupid sex movies invlolving sluts and whore scence like in american pie?! really she need a fcking reality check she isnt no actress like come one.
3. mall cop in my opnion is really not that funny i mean i noe im not a movie critic and i might not get paid to see movies and get my opnion on stupid movies with hot actors BUT! really that movie is so fcking dumb dere momments you fcking know somthings going to happen ! but watever i dnt get paid to do this shiet ;)

we also rented friday the thirteen which to be honest tops all the jason nd freddy movies as the worse horror film of the century. like really it made me luagh instead of making fcking pee in terror. i went to see that bull on valentines day with my date a the time (surpisingly ,we never talked after that.) but anywayyy i was laughing my imagniary dick off at the stupid momments where it supossed to scare me . i guess $1 dollar movies rentals sck bad ; ]

my first entryyyyy woohoo! =]

well well this be my first time trying this blogging business and i have to say it feels good :]

noww i can write what da hell i want and people can see how i feel and stuff.

and let me say for starters ive had a VERY shitty morning , first off as usual i had an arguemennt with my mother i mean come ON seriously no peace in the morning?!

dere she is wakin me up at seven in dee morning talkin about how im lazy and i need

to earn things and that why havent i clean my room blah blah blah ! dont you jus wish you can smack em in the face? but since i love my mom dearly i wont do that :) so on with the dilema

she keepss talking and talking and did i mention more talking? yes i did. then she keeps giving me the look which i hate! then she noticed that i gave my look 2 (which consist of a mixture of boredom and annoyance ;) ] den she drops the bomb . . i cnt go to SIX FLAGS i wassss sooooo

PISSEDDDDD like i wanted to scream and cuss the CRAP out of her. -_____- but i didnt becuase if i did i would had made it worse. . but then after textin my cuzing dariela whom i love very much =] she helped calm down an i realized that i need to have a little. . . talk with her..

but ima try to get it together like linda says becuase i really i wanna go to six flagss =]<--so yeah dats my hott momma . she might be a sexy woman buh shess all evil i tell yah lol =]