being a third wheele . . . sucks ASSS

well like you havnt been there right?

i mean come ON have to always be there becuase you cant be with a boyfriend by your self yadda yadda . . .

• .there making out right next to you


• they are being affectionate right next to you . ..


• and most ofall your JEALOUS of it ALL.

WHY? becuase i dnt have a person to be affectionate with , to be loving dovey with.

and to use that excuse of having someoneELSE be a third wheele. . .

but even though i shouldnt complain becuase i had my chance . .and yeah soo . . . im over it

but anywayss . . . .im feening for some PORKFRIED & CHICKEN WING! =]

mmmmmmm =]

probally one of the worst WEEKENDS to DATE.

so yess it was a shitty weekend . WHY?

becuase its all started with my gym bag . . . .

so yeah it was friday after school and as usual i was walking to KP with my friends.

that friday i was wearing my ADDIDAS slippers (which is to say i LOVE them.)

and my friend harlow. (ill call him that. is better he not know of this.;) ] thought it was funny

him and Sam. to start steeping on my slippers which at first! im not gonna lie it was funny .

but THEN it started to piss me OFF and finally after 10 minutes i had it ! so i was like "gimmie my FCKING BAG! >:0" (chase had my bag.) and SHAZAM! i stormed off and left walking to kp by myself.

so when i get to KP i run off to fcking CVS buy my self an Arizona. and i came back and stayed chillen with my old friends from adelaide . (thats a diff story i will try to tell LATER.) and as ALWAYS i drop my bag on the seat at KP and jus started talking waiting for my bus. and then my bus came and let me tell you that bus leave so quick you would blink and it gone! so i leave say goodbye to everyone and left . and i forgot my GYMBAGGG :O but i had'nt realize yet until i was one stop away from my stop. luckly i was talking to the bestest friend in prov. BOBBY (changing names again lol) so i told bobby can he pls check and see that my bag is there nd luckly he found and i told him to hold for me till monday. thank god he did or i would of DIED.

well anyway. later at night my mom send me to the store (which i have to say it is UP the HILL )

really far man so i got my mylist to buy my money and i start going up the hill my mom the calls and she tells me to buy her a calling card and im like okay so i FINNALLY make it up the hill and i start to buy everything and when i go up to pay. the money wasnt in my POCKET >:0!!!!!!! i couldnt help it istarted crying why? becuase i ALWAYS lose moeny or im always forgetting things (had to get the forgetting gene from my retarded father -____-.) and then i had to call my mom and tell her i lost the money luckly she let it go becuase her boyfriend was there if not i would have been SKINNED alive. so yeah i leave the store looking down ATTEMPTING and unsuccessfully finding the money and fustrating my self even more when i got home .

what sucked the most was i didnt have any charger to charge my phone becuase like a dumb ass i put it in my gym BAG. so i tried not to use it so much . luckly on sunday my cousin margaret whom i love and adore at TIMES let me borrow her back-up charget

(which i still havent give it to her back.)

and that was the worse weekend ever.

bythe WAY this is the retarded gym bag -___-

its been a long time now! lol

heyy !

hello!

hola!

ciao!

itss been a mean minuto since i been in the blog. and there i say it . . i missed it ALOT =]

alots been going on since summer 09 has passed and let me tell you 9 out of 10 its been not good things x(

• first of all im still single due to the fact i broke up with the best thing that has ever happen to me . -____- (im soo not going to get into that.)


• school has been a constant pain in the ass since the FIRST day.


• my mom is becoming another constant anoyyence in life trying to make me feel like crap every five minutes.


• and i officially hate tennis as of 2 weeks ago.

so yeah it hasnt been a pleaseant time since the beginning of the school BUT my friends are being there for me so far so its all GOOD in the HOOD ^__^.

damm now thats what i call a very CURIOUS George lmaoooo.

its officiall im fallinggg . . . x3

so yess its officiall im falling for him .. and for the first time in years i feel happy =]

im not gonna mention names becuase is to early too tell if this is forreal..  to feel 

like for the first time im really going to have my happy ending . after some many times guys 

atempting to use me ii finally can say dis ones forreal. me and this person have so much in common it scares da shiet out of me :/ he makes me feel so special and i like that alot.

i jus wishhh i didnt have to go away to DR next week so i can be with him every chance i have . . 

im probally being too much and it might scare him off . :x butt for now im content with  what i have with him. .  =] 

 omgheee isnt that photo TOO sooo cutee even though in a ironic way its not 0.0 lol

my life in a nuttshell . .

well it isn't really easy living my freaking life.. . these past couple of weeks has been hell on wheels :/ my moms has become a constant pain in the ass man getting on me for no reason, seeking the opportunity to call me the worse duaghter in the whole wide world always comparing me to my toher cousins oh oyu need to be more flirtatiuos you need to be more gurlie you need to be the you need to be that im SICK of it sick of it all.! i triedd to be the best person i can be but is never enough he rather talk to my cousins instead of me she rather nice and loving to my littlee brother then me! there are times where i feel i was born in a different family . theres really noone who understands me only the people who try to understand me. . .

have you ever felt likee your living in a cage where you cnt get out? i havee im living in a cage where i m trapped 24/7 and it sucks most of dee timee.

but eventually god knows it would be for dee best huh?

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.-- Alfred D. Souza" <---- dis kiddo is right obsticles are my life .

8 more days man . . .-_______-

well its little over a week that i am leaving to Dominican Republic and im dreading everyminute of it. . . i mean like everyones telling me oh why dont you wanna GO its DR its better than providenceee . and i say yess its true problem is im sick of it i already went for TWO months last year and let me tell you it sucked ASS not a great way to spend yah summer let me tell yah. its hard becuase i could had had a job a summer romance and prolly the BEST summer EVER! but im not becuase moms obsessed with my dad in the DR and theres' a wedding i need to attend to. ugh its fustrating man becuase it sucks how you finnally meet someone who could of made your summer special . . and you cnt becuase of DR. but so far im talking about the cons lets talki bout the good stuff i could get away from our little old town and enjoy the awsomeness of the tropical islandd of DR. and since i am a maniac forr fooddd i loveeee every food in DR exceptt pigs ears YUCK and live roooseterrrrr X[ but anyways i guess ill have to enjoy it whilee i can and make the best of it like ashelyyy says . .

but dont worry folks ill still writeee from time to time in my dads retarded internet chat store watever you call it dere lol =]

P$- im fallinggg for him ;) byeee.

out of school . . now summer school.? WTF !

well it barely julyy and its SUMMER nooooo SCHOOL no more waking upp early no seeing gay teachers! and jus have fun ; let loose. but den peoplee end up doing summer school? why da hell do you want to have school inn the summer even though its from 8 to 12 and its only 3 weeks but HELLO you could have done something better den being stuck in school doing work buh noooo they always ALWAYS faling dere classes and dey be like fck it ima do summer school and be done witt it. like what da hell ?! is being in summer the new "IN" is it like the hangout spot for summer i mean there are some pluses i mean you get to see some of your friends like you would do in school . and diquee theirs air condition and shiet and the work is EASY. but is worth it looking stupid for the whole year and waste your time doing work in the summer that you should of done during the summer. i mean me personally i NEVER failed a class or been to summer school i wonder how it feels like -_____- not thatt im gonna fail for that reason . i mean seriously now i days people tend to quit easilyyy and it jus anoyys da hell out of me becuase if you really pass da fcking class and dnt have to do it again dnt be the class bimbo ask your teacher ask question after do tootering WATEVER! try b the best you can be cus im trying to someone i dnt noe about you guys. . .

<--- they advertise it like its a GOOD thing O.o smh!