ugh crying on the inside . ..

these past couple of weeks have been hell for me i dnt see how i havent broke down
yet . . . im failing math maybe physics and im calm about it . ..
i feel so calm about so many things but inside the reality is im crying so hard. .
im feeling really depressed all over again and its a topic im not gooing to disscuss
but deres going to be a point where im going to jus cry a river of my anxiety . .

well yeahh .. . .im gone . .



oh and PS: price charming is the biggest bullshiet ive ever heard
theres no such things a guy who going to sweep you up your feet. . .

lalalalala iloveyou . ...

so yepp im bored in computer class

but let me tell yah bout my THANKSGIVING it was DECENT as some special guy says ;)

i mean i ate ALOT of food except TURKEY? o.o which is ironic since the main purpose of
THANKSGIVING is to eat TURKEY but dnt get me wrong ther WAS turkey! i jus was to lazy to get some and i also heard it didnt taste good hehe ;)

so yeah um other than coming home 4am in the morning the next day from partyin witt the fam
it wasnt that bad i mean like

1. i saw fam from outside RI
2. played SUPER SMASHED BROTHERS on the Wii___^
3. and ate ALOT of Lasagna =]
4. lastly jus being with my closest family and friends they..complete me period! =]

soo with that i say until next TIME =]

PS. iloveyou charlotte. . . x3

computer class is . .. EH

so . . .
i need a bed NOW . . .

arrivaderci =]

almond eyes . . .

almonds eyes of his keep huanting me . . .

see him in my dreams . . nightmares . .

everywere . . .

almond eyes ,

realize

that

im either with you . .

or gone

stop huanting me almond eyes . .

for the pain hurts deep within me . . .

almond eyes . . forever yours . . .

boun giorno BITCHES =]

sup guys =]

well im here bored in computerclass screwed becuase ididnt do my homework . . . . .

and i have ALOT of hw todo also FCKKK HOMEWORK yooo _____-

hehe



yeah well so far its been a weired as spirit week . . did i meantion is was SPIRIT WEEK!!! =D

(fake enthuisiam . . ) ;)



so yeah letss tell you what i did and did not do and what was spirit week

1. Monday- Hot mess day . . -didnt do it i actually went pretty nicely =]


2. Tuesday-multipicity day (more than 2 people dress the same) didnt do it. . didnt have the colors my friends wanted lol___-


3. Wendsday-fairytale day- FCK no! BUT! i did see very pretty princesses and fairies ;)


4. Thursday-HEROE & VILLAN DAY- nope didnt do it either lol but did see some scaryASS shiet o.o


5. Tommarow-FRIDAY.-blue & white day- will i do it? maybe it IS peprally tomarow ;)

and on SATURDAYYYYY is the HOMECOMEING game agaisnt EXESS? idk lol but GO HOPE ;)

theennnnn is the HOMECOMING DANCE =] it better not be wack shiet . . .. i payeddd 1 dollar ;]

but mmmmm oh well lol =]

PS. iloveyou . . .Charlotte =] ( insider] :-*

<------awwwwww love it ;)

. . . .

i think i want you back . . . . x3

you know who the hell you AREEEE.

PS. i miss my fcking PHONE
stupid lilo bro peeing on it ____-
o WELL god has a reason why and i totally respect that. . .
btw the song 1234 by the plain white tee's
LOVE them =] its an oldie kinda of but still warms my heart =]

btw ATTENTION. winter is almost HERE. =]
wifey season!!!! like these idiot guys say it lmao
i cnt wait for the snow fights. . . .kisses..under the snow GOD am i a hopeless romantic or WHAT? ;)

well im goneeee. till next timee!!!

xoxo,
gossip gurl>? NAHHH

byee =]

feeling down . .

ugh i hate the feeling of utter blahh ness where you really have no choice but to suck it up.
testing was a drag today honestly didnt do the best i could of but HEY! what can you do>?

so yeah let me tell you about my weekend. it was the wieredest but then again okay weekend.
first of all on FRIDAY i went to meet up with a kidd i mett on myspace name SETH (changing names.] well yeah hes pretty much a cool dude minus the agressiveness which he SAYS its from me being distracted watching suite life of zach & cody well i CANT help it ! it was a good episodeee!

so yea saturday was one of those fcking RAINNG days where all i wanted to do was SLEEP SLEEP and most importantly: SLEEPP! which i eventually did to a point becuase SETH couldnt let me sleep ! its okay though it was sweeet of him to keep me up all day.!

but yeah anyways on sunday! which was YESTURDAY! was an AWSOME and bittersweet day ;)

1. after i got my lazy ass downstairs to the kitchen i made some mangu with salami ! (mmm good i know! ;) ]
2. shower, changed, dressed, out to go visit my moms sisters working buddy who had a pipi problem and got an operation for it lmao!
3. saw the ending of drag me to hell -my honest opnion?-not a bad ending was kinda clever. she DOES end up dragged to hell. hehe
4. decided i was STARVING! so i ended up going to get some chinese since i had $$$.
5. retarded dumbass of jayson(old friend ; aka operated woman son!.) decided to tag along just for me to buy him a WING . (the niggah thinks im rich?!)
6. then like the AWSOME bitch that i am ;) make him order the chinese food when we get there, noticing this aa man says to jayson "HEY?! man up son, dnt let the gurl be like that. how much money you need?"
7. i was DUMBSTRUCK! becuase

a. he thought we was together

b. he jus gave money to Jayson to buy chinese food

c. i jus saved a dollar! :D

8. so me and jayson sat there eating chinese food laughing at the fact we went to buy chinese for one ended up buying chinese for 2 !

9. after leaving his house and headed for home i gott a suprise visit from my old friend freddy. (changing names again ;) and he came to my house for a lilo and ended up having a great time =]

i truly did miss him .

10. then i fininish texting freddy at 1147pm ended waking up randomly at 220 and talked to him till 500 in the MORNING hard to belive im still AWAKE typing this as am in a state of NUMBNESS im extremly EXHAUSTED. im going home STRAIGHT to BED.

and that is the end to an awsome but okay weekened =]