for the guy with the fake british accent...

charlotte? i guess in the end you never really were price charming for me :'x
you was more than that . . always were always will
worst part is i still want you in my life . .
but i cnt deal with seeing you or talking to you
my heart breaks more . but i shouldnt be tallking
cus is my fualt i WAS the one to break up with you
but hey what can you do . .

well that is all i have to say . adios

Depression is like a constipated rhino sitting on your chest.

- Rob Anderson


pretty much yeah . .

ugh crying on the inside . ..

these past couple of weeks have been hell for me i dnt see how i havent broke down
yet . . . im failing math maybe physics and im calm about it . ..
i feel so calm about so many things but inside the reality is im crying so hard. .
im feeling really depressed all over again and its a topic im not gooing to disscuss
but deres going to be a point where im going to jus cry a river of my anxiety . .

well yeahh .. . .im gone . .



oh and PS: price charming is the biggest bullshiet ive ever heard
theres no such things a guy who going to sweep you up your feet. . .

lalalalala iloveyou . ...

so yepp im bored in computer class

but let me tell yah bout my THANKSGIVING it was DECENT as some special guy says ;)

i mean i ate ALOT of food except TURKEY? o.o which is ironic since the main purpose of
THANKSGIVING is to eat TURKEY but dnt get me wrong ther WAS turkey! i jus was to lazy to get some and i also heard it didnt taste good hehe ;)

so yeah um other than coming home 4am in the morning the next day from partyin witt the fam
it wasnt that bad i mean like

1. i saw fam from outside RI
2. played SUPER SMASHED BROTHERS on the Wii___^
3. and ate ALOT of Lasagna =]
4. lastly jus being with my closest family and friends they..complete me period! =]

soo with that i say until next TIME =]

PS. iloveyou charlotte. . . x3

computer class is . .. EH

so . . .
i need a bed NOW . . .

arrivaderci =]

almond eyes . . .

almonds eyes of his keep huanting me . . .

see him in my dreams . . nightmares . .

everywere . . .

almond eyes ,

realize

that

im either with you . .

or gone

stop huanting me almond eyes . .

for the pain hurts deep within me . . .

almond eyes . . forever yours . . .

boun giorno BITCHES =]

sup guys =]

well im here bored in computerclass screwed becuase ididnt do my homework . . . . .

and i have ALOT of hw todo also FCKKK HOMEWORK yooo _____-

hehe



yeah well so far its been a weired as spirit week . . did i meantion is was SPIRIT WEEK!!! =D

(fake enthuisiam . . ) ;)



so yeah letss tell you what i did and did not do and what was spirit week

1. Monday- Hot mess day . . -didnt do it i actually went pretty nicely =]


2. Tuesday-multipicity day (more than 2 people dress the same) didnt do it. . didnt have the colors my friends wanted lol___-


3. Wendsday-fairytale day- FCK no! BUT! i did see very pretty princesses and fairies ;)


4. Thursday-HEROE & VILLAN DAY- nope didnt do it either lol but did see some scaryASS shiet o.o


5. Tommarow-FRIDAY.-blue & white day- will i do it? maybe it IS peprally tomarow ;)

and on SATURDAYYYYY is the HOMECOMEING game agaisnt EXESS? idk lol but GO HOPE ;)

theennnnn is the HOMECOMING DANCE =] it better not be wack shiet . . .. i payeddd 1 dollar ;]

but mmmmm oh well lol =]

PS. iloveyou . . .Charlotte =] ( insider] :-*

<------awwwwww love it ;)

. . . .

i think i want you back . . . . x3

you know who the hell you AREEEE.

PS. i miss my fcking PHONE
stupid lilo bro peeing on it ____-
o WELL god has a reason why and i totally respect that. . .
btw the song 1234 by the plain white tee's
LOVE them =] its an oldie kinda of but still warms my heart =]

btw ATTENTION. winter is almost HERE. =]
wifey season!!!! like these idiot guys say it lmao
i cnt wait for the snow fights. . . .kisses..under the snow GOD am i a hopeless romantic or WHAT? ;)

well im goneeee. till next timee!!!

xoxo,
gossip gurl>? NAHHH

byee =]

feeling down . .

ugh i hate the feeling of utter blahh ness where you really have no choice but to suck it up.
testing was a drag today honestly didnt do the best i could of but HEY! what can you do>?

so yeah let me tell you about my weekend. it was the wieredest but then again okay weekend.
first of all on FRIDAY i went to meet up with a kidd i mett on myspace name SETH (changing names.] well yeah hes pretty much a cool dude minus the agressiveness which he SAYS its from me being distracted watching suite life of zach & cody well i CANT help it ! it was a good episodeee!

so yea saturday was one of those fcking RAINNG days where all i wanted to do was SLEEP SLEEP and most importantly: SLEEPP! which i eventually did to a point becuase SETH couldnt let me sleep ! its okay though it was sweeet of him to keep me up all day.!

but yeah anyways on sunday! which was YESTURDAY! was an AWSOME and bittersweet day ;)

1. after i got my lazy ass downstairs to the kitchen i made some mangu with salami ! (mmm good i know! ;) ]
2. shower, changed, dressed, out to go visit my moms sisters working buddy who had a pipi problem and got an operation for it lmao!
3. saw the ending of drag me to hell -my honest opnion?-not a bad ending was kinda clever. she DOES end up dragged to hell. hehe
4. decided i was STARVING! so i ended up going to get some chinese since i had $$$.
5. retarded dumbass of jayson(old friend ; aka operated woman son!.) decided to tag along just for me to buy him a WING . (the niggah thinks im rich?!)
6. then like the AWSOME bitch that i am ;) make him order the chinese food when we get there, noticing this aa man says to jayson "HEY?! man up son, dnt let the gurl be like that. how much money you need?"
7. i was DUMBSTRUCK! becuase

a. he thought we was together

b. he jus gave money to Jayson to buy chinese food

c. i jus saved a dollar! :D

8. so me and jayson sat there eating chinese food laughing at the fact we went to buy chinese for one ended up buying chinese for 2 !

9. after leaving his house and headed for home i gott a suprise visit from my old friend freddy. (changing names again ;) and he came to my house for a lilo and ended up having a great time =]

i truly did miss him .

10. then i fininish texting freddy at 1147pm ended waking up randomly at 220 and talked to him till 500 in the MORNING hard to belive im still AWAKE typing this as am in a state of NUMBNESS im extremly EXHAUSTED. im going home STRAIGHT to BED.

and that is the end to an awsome but okay weekened =]

being a third wheele . . . sucks ASSS

well like you havnt been there right?

i mean come ON have to always be there becuase you cant be with a boyfriend by your self yadda yadda . . .

• .there making out right next to you


• they are being affectionate right next to you . ..


• and most ofall your JEALOUS of it ALL.

WHY? becuase i dnt have a person to be affectionate with , to be loving dovey with.

and to use that excuse of having someoneELSE be a third wheele. . .

but even though i shouldnt complain becuase i had my chance . .and yeah soo . . . im over it

but anywayss . . . .im feening for some PORKFRIED & CHICKEN WING! =]

mmmmmmm =]

probally one of the worst WEEKENDS to DATE.

so yess it was a shitty weekend . WHY?

becuase its all started with my gym bag . . . .

so yeah it was friday after school and as usual i was walking to KP with my friends.

that friday i was wearing my ADDIDAS slippers (which is to say i LOVE them.)

and my friend harlow. (ill call him that. is better he not know of this.;) ] thought it was funny

him and Sam. to start steeping on my slippers which at first! im not gonna lie it was funny .

but THEN it started to piss me OFF and finally after 10 minutes i had it ! so i was like "gimmie my FCKING BAG! >:0" (chase had my bag.) and SHAZAM! i stormed off and left walking to kp by myself.

so when i get to KP i run off to fcking CVS buy my self an Arizona. and i came back and stayed chillen with my old friends from adelaide . (thats a diff story i will try to tell LATER.) and as ALWAYS i drop my bag on the seat at KP and jus started talking waiting for my bus. and then my bus came and let me tell you that bus leave so quick you would blink and it gone! so i leave say goodbye to everyone and left . and i forgot my GYMBAGGG :O but i had'nt realize yet until i was one stop away from my stop. luckly i was talking to the bestest friend in prov. BOBBY (changing names again lol) so i told bobby can he pls check and see that my bag is there nd luckly he found and i told him to hold for me till monday. thank god he did or i would of DIED.

well anyway. later at night my mom send me to the store (which i have to say it is UP the HILL )

really far man so i got my mylist to buy my money and i start going up the hill my mom the calls and she tells me to buy her a calling card and im like okay so i FINNALLY make it up the hill and i start to buy everything and when i go up to pay. the money wasnt in my POCKET >:0!!!!!!! i couldnt help it istarted crying why? becuase i ALWAYS lose moeny or im always forgetting things (had to get the forgetting gene from my retarded father -____-.) and then i had to call my mom and tell her i lost the money luckly she let it go becuase her boyfriend was there if not i would have been SKINNED alive. so yeah i leave the store looking down ATTEMPTING and unsuccessfully finding the money and fustrating my self even more when i got home .

what sucked the most was i didnt have any charger to charge my phone becuase like a dumb ass i put it in my gym BAG. so i tried not to use it so much . luckly on sunday my cousin margaret whom i love and adore at TIMES let me borrow her back-up charget

(which i still havent give it to her back.)

and that was the worse weekend ever.

bythe WAY this is the retarded gym bag -___-

its been a long time now! lol

heyy !

hello!

hola!

ciao!

itss been a mean minuto since i been in the blog. and there i say it . . i missed it ALOT =]

alots been going on since summer 09 has passed and let me tell you 9 out of 10 its been not good things x(

• first of all im still single due to the fact i broke up with the best thing that has ever happen to me . -____- (im soo not going to get into that.)


• school has been a constant pain in the ass since the FIRST day.


• my mom is becoming another constant anoyyence in life trying to make me feel like crap every five minutes.


• and i officially hate tennis as of 2 weeks ago.

so yeah it hasnt been a pleaseant time since the beginning of the school BUT my friends are being there for me so far so its all GOOD in the HOOD ^__^.

damm now thats what i call a very CURIOUS George lmaoooo.

its officiall im fallinggg . . . x3

so yess its officiall im falling for him .. and for the first time in years i feel happy =]

im not gonna mention names becuase is to early too tell if this is forreal..  to feel 

like for the first time im really going to have my happy ending . after some many times guys 

atempting to use me ii finally can say dis ones forreal. me and this person have so much in common it scares da shiet out of me :/ he makes me feel so special and i like that alot.

i jus wishhh i didnt have to go away to DR next week so i can be with him every chance i have . . 

im probally being too much and it might scare him off . :x butt for now im content with  what i have with him. .  =] 

 omgheee isnt that photo TOO sooo cutee even though in a ironic way its not 0.0 lol

my life in a nuttshell . .

well it isn't really easy living my freaking life.. . these past couple of weeks has been hell on wheels :/ my moms has become a constant pain in the ass man getting on me for no reason, seeking the opportunity to call me the worse duaghter in the whole wide world always comparing me to my toher cousins oh oyu need to be more flirtatiuos you need to be more gurlie you need to be the you need to be that im SICK of it sick of it all.! i triedd to be the best person i can be but is never enough he rather talk to my cousins instead of me she rather nice and loving to my littlee brother then me! there are times where i feel i was born in a different family . theres really noone who understands me only the people who try to understand me. . .

have you ever felt likee your living in a cage where you cnt get out? i havee im living in a cage where i m trapped 24/7 and it sucks most of dee timee.

but eventually god knows it would be for dee best huh?

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.-- Alfred D. Souza" <---- dis kiddo is right obsticles are my life .

8 more days man . . .-_______-

well its little over a week that i am leaving to Dominican Republic and im dreading everyminute of it. . . i mean like everyones telling me oh why dont you wanna GO its DR its better than providenceee . and i say yess its true problem is im sick of it i already went for TWO months last year and let me tell you it sucked ASS not a great way to spend yah summer let me tell yah. its hard becuase i could had had a job a summer romance and prolly the BEST summer EVER! but im not becuase moms obsessed with my dad in the DR and theres' a wedding i need to attend to. ugh its fustrating man becuase it sucks how you finnally meet someone who could of made your summer special . . and you cnt becuase of DR. but so far im talking about the cons lets talki bout the good stuff i could get away from our little old town and enjoy the awsomeness of the tropical islandd of DR. and since i am a maniac forr fooddd i loveeee every food in DR exceptt pigs ears YUCK and live roooseterrrrr X[ but anyways i guess ill have to enjoy it whilee i can and make the best of it like ashelyyy says . .

but dont worry folks ill still writeee from time to time in my dads retarded internet chat store watever you call it dere lol =]

P$- im fallinggg for him ;) byeee.

out of school . . now summer school.? WTF !

well it barely julyy and its SUMMER nooooo SCHOOL no more waking upp early no seeing gay teachers! and jus have fun ; let loose. but den peoplee end up doing summer school? why da hell do you want to have school inn the summer even though its from 8 to 12 and its only 3 weeks but HELLO you could have done something better den being stuck in school doing work buh noooo they always ALWAYS faling dere classes and dey be like fck it ima do summer school and be done witt it. like what da hell ?! is being in summer the new "IN" is it like the hangout spot for summer i mean there are some pluses i mean you get to see some of your friends like you would do in school . and diquee theirs air condition and shiet and the work is EASY. but is worth it looking stupid for the whole year and waste your time doing work in the summer that you should of done during the summer. i mean me personally i NEVER failed a class or been to summer school i wonder how it feels like -_____- not thatt im gonna fail for that reason . i mean seriously now i days people tend to quit easilyyy and it jus anoyys da hell out of me becuase if you really pass da fcking class and dnt have to do it again dnt be the class bimbo ask your teacher ask question after do tootering WATEVER! try b the best you can be cus im trying to someone i dnt noe about you guys. . .

<--- they advertise it like its a GOOD thing O.o smh!

benjamin$$$$$$ =]

this post i s special becuase its about my buddi benjamin ! =] aka 100 dollar bills ;)

he is like the coolest person EVER. hes like the most nicest sweetest person you

could ever meet. we met threw myspace which is wiered becuase i NEVER give

my aim to anyone on myspace . and he was so chilled wen we talked on my space

so i said what the hay! and gave him my aim .

and we been having awsome convos ever since he was my first reader to read my bloggooo an hes encourages me and compliments me which is a pluss =] i barely have begun to meet him but already i know i can talk to him about anything and i know he would understand ! i hope hes in for dee long run becuase so far hes doing good ;)

its official! my love life scks -___-

well i might be 15 3/4 quarters and i definately know i got my whole life ahead of me to find mr. right . but. . . my love life sucks i mean is it so much to ask for a nice cute decent funny guy who can treat a gurl right? like come on now! (im using alot of come on lol ) afterr so many failed attempts at finding mr right now im realzing that providence does not have enough fcking good lookinq guys who are funny smart decent and just know how to treat a girl right you know?

i mean what guys doesnt ask these questions right of the bat

• so are you a virgin?


• so was good?


• when you lettin me hit that?


• so when are you me chillen?

so im not gonna putt the blamee on all guys that all they think of is sex which of course is not all of them dere are some sweet guy that they do anthing for you but. . us gurls are never attracted to them or their the best guy friend nd would NEVER do such a thing.

but as for mee all guys usually want one thing - my body.

i mean im jus pretty normal gurliee. but im not gonna say there were guys where dey wanted me for who i am which i totally want problem is . . once again im not attracted and i end upp getting atracted to the ass hole who only was a hit nd bounce method. "/ butt fck it i do NOT give in becuase jus wen you give in a little dey go in for dee kill!

butt in the mean time im going to lay low for a while nd be single . . . as usual

but if someone thinks the y can change my opnion hitt me up i dnt mind having a debate on this issue ;D

<----so yeah i jus found dis picture on google i mean COME on im not dat desprete but i see this buddy is ;)

$1 dollar rental$$$

soo i jus finished watching these too movies mall cop & american high school.

1. we got them at these rent a box shiet where you get the movies rented for a dollar a day which is ok.
2. the movies selections SUCK and might i add that wtf is aubrey from danity kane doing stupid sex movies invlolving sluts and whore scence like in american pie?! really she need a fcking reality check she isnt no actress like come one.
3. mall cop in my opnion is really not that funny i mean i noe im not a movie critic and i might not get paid to see movies and get my opnion on stupid movies with hot actors BUT! really that movie is so fcking dumb dere momments you fcking know somthings going to happen ! but watever i dnt get paid to do this shiet ;)

we also rented friday the thirteen which to be honest tops all the jason nd freddy movies as the worse horror film of the century. like really it made me luagh instead of making fcking pee in terror. i went to see that bull on valentines day with my date a the time (surpisingly ,we never talked after that.) but anywayyy i was laughing my imagniary dick off at the stupid momments where it supossed to scare me . i guess $1 dollar movies rentals sck bad ; ]

my first entryyyyy woohoo! =]

well well this be my first time trying this blogging business and i have to say it feels good :]

noww i can write what da hell i want and people can see how i feel and stuff.

and let me say for starters ive had a VERY shitty morning , first off as usual i had an arguemennt with my mother i mean come ON seriously no peace in the morning?!

dere she is wakin me up at seven in dee morning talkin about how im lazy and i need

to earn things and that why havent i clean my room blah blah blah ! dont you jus wish you can smack em in the face? but since i love my mom dearly i wont do that :) so on with the dilema

she keepss talking and talking and did i mention more talking? yes i did. then she keeps giving me the look which i hate! then she noticed that i gave my look 2 (which consist of a mixture of boredom and annoyance ;) ] den she drops the bomb . . i cnt go to SIX FLAGS i wassss sooooo

PISSEDDDDD like i wanted to scream and cuss the CRAP out of her. -_____- but i didnt becuase if i did i would had made it worse. . but then after textin my cuzing dariela whom i love very much =] she helped calm down an i realized that i need to have a little. . . talk with her..

but ima try to get it together like linda says becuase i really i wanna go to six flagss =]<--so yeah dats my hott momma . she might be a sexy woman buh shess all evil i tell yah lol =]